@Jonbazookaboz I'm so sorry your thread is being derailed. Hopefully you'll realise there are a variety of perspectives and it's all okay
We had this conversation when Neil was still on here, I remember. He very kindly stuck up for me because, although he's a much better player than I (by some distance), he totally gets where I was coming from. Some people just get satisfaction from improving their game and competitive play
You have a different neurodivergence than I (probably) have

I (naturally) have a blank facial expression, don't naturally maintain eye contact and have rote-learned small talk. Trying to look 'normal' at social events is exhausting - rather like having to pretend to be Hamlet every time you walk into a pub, but being unable to tell anyone about it

I find goal-orientated activities a lot less stressful, where social contact can be optional and I only have to twist my face about frantically and remember to maintain eye contact for short periods while still having the opportunity - of course - to meet different friendly people and share a hobby with them!
Internet forums are great - I just use emojis for the facial expressions I lack!
Ack, going to depend on whether I'm 'flaring'

(hopefully not


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I think it is, but for the benefit of
@Jonbazookaboz, the take-home message really is that anything goes in terms of posting high scores

And, if you want to play in competition, regardless of format, it's different from home play
Well, the general idea is that I try to improve until I'm in the middle of the pack

I'm not expecting more than that because I am in my forties and my reflexes suck